When An Angel I Have Not Become... Poem by Lex Leon

I used to cause harm to people
I didn’t want darkness left by me when I’m gone
In hell my soul is burning, no way to be withdrawn
But feet of mine still walk the Earth
I have begun corruptly
And feel like I’ll end up worse
Unfortunately, love I did not find
Lost all my friends,
I’m like a lonely book on a dusty shelf
Slowly creating enemies and hangmen for myself
Traded my dreams for delirium of intoxicating nights
My will not to care reached unimaginable heights
I did not need a living soul
Now I became unneeded,
Residing in this spiteful hellhole
No matter what I do, I stay defeated
Who will help me
Could anybody save me
To acquire freedom
Simply destroy the hate and anger
Consumed by evil, no exit from this kingdom
What am I to pay for the rescue of my soul
Who will sacrifice their heart at the altar
With time I grow more distant, colder
Those who tried to open up my eyes
Completely turned to fools, met their demise
As I was morally destroying them
I was degradingly destroying my own life
It was too late I realized
That after all, I was the devil, in disguise…