When I Get To Heaven Poem by Carly Smith

In my dreams I hold you tight
Im so full of Joy every night
When you're in my arms again
I wish I could give you a toy train
After all that is your name

Every day I open my eyes
Wondering if it was a blessing in disguise
But my angel- you never got to live
I'd have given you everything I could give
Hope you aint looking down on me
Sat in my prison wishing to be free
If I had you- I would be

Cos its the pain of losing you
That made me play a losing game
Always empty, I cary the pain
Hidden behind a smile, it's always the same
My angel- I'll always love you so
If I could I'd hold tight and never let go

So beautiful, innocent and sweet
The heartbreaking memory my soul to keep
Im so sorry I couldn't save you..
I didnt know how to....

Wake up! ! Please, please.. open your eyes and cry!
Oh no! Oh please God why! ! ? ?
He's dead, so sweet and beautiful in peace
I gave you a kiss and said Goodbye
That was our hello too, one and the same
Im so sorry little angel- Mummy loves you
and she'll never, ever forget your name
(Thomas)

I know you wouldnt want me to cry
But I can't help it
Why did you have to die? ? ?
The most precious thing to me
Wait until I get to heaven and you'll see
How much I LOVE YOU..: -(