When You Say You Love Me! ! Poem by Shagun Khera

Amidst the apparent irrevocable pain and suffering
You shake your head in an incessant vain
As despair and desperation shine gloriously on your face..
And the reminiscence of a forgotten memory
Suddenly sacks a thunder in your forest of dreams…
And in that momentary lapse of reason
You cry…..

You cry and you call me…
And from perennial distance…that you carved out carefully
You tell me that you love me…..

Daggers suddenly turn diamonds….
And the love smitten with pervert ignorance..
Suddenly begins to take the stride of a phoenix…
But deep inside my heart..i know…
It’s a hollow crave….a pretentious longing…
A painted display of an egregious failure…
A fib that wants to hold its head high…
A mutilation with spared pieces of flesh and blood…
A shameless endeavor of a repetitive sin….
I know it deep within my heart….
When you cry…..
You cry and you call me…
Pretending to return from a decade of lost worthless journey to rest in my arms
You tell me that you love me…
I know it deep within my heart…
That it will fade with every beat of your heart….

It is a gust of a dusty wind….
That will leave behind the traces of the fallen pieces…
And you expect me to look for your you and me..
In the broken mirror of a haunting past
And to embrace you back with open arms…..
And then when your lust for sympathy and love is gratified beyond redemption
You will fade out from life…
With the rise of another sun….
Only to accuse me…of what was hatched by you..
And I like a silent witness of my own destruction…
Will slip into the void of inexplicable questions…
Just to realize…you pulled me out..just to push me down again…

I know it deep within my heart…
When on those lonely nights of suicidal tendencies…
I’m on way to sleepless sessions…
you call me and cry…
And tell me that you love me….
I know it deep within my heart….
You will walk away as soon as you will come back….
When you say you love me..
I know its not you….
I know its not true....