? ? ? Where Am I? ? ? Poem by Empath In flames

Alone….
Discoloured,
Fragmented and distorted….
The image I proclaim is only as strong
as your power to remember me.
As lighting strikes, quick likeness of me.
Rapidly fades away....

Where am I?
I can only replay neurotic counterfeit memories.
I've manifested to immobile my mind.
Only I know they don't exist……
You weren't that kind….
You weren't that loving,

I want to remember,
The real reason why I'm thinking of you.
And not of the others that respected me.
The ones that cared…
A conjunction of my thoughts….
In parts I can only just conjure up.
Where am I?
How do I exist?
And yet can not see my reflected image?
How do I see the blackness that surrounds me?
Why is it that. I can only remember you?
The gratifying feeling I have,
To have known you….
To want to die for you? …

Am I dead?
Or asleep in a never ending loop.
Is there a difference?

I can't be dead.
I can feel my heart beating…..
Louder as I think,
Stronger as I feel.
Where am I?
Where am I…….

~Empath~