Where Am I? Where I Am? Poem by Ramdas Bhandarkar

How Can I find where am I
if I am not here now
where I have to be..

If I am here and now
where else I can be....
is in this body, is in this mind..?

Is on this piece of rock called Earth
that revolve around
gaseous cloud Sun..

Or am I one among clouds
cluster of glowing matter in sky
what we call galaxy?

Or in the space in which
all these float in pool of energy?
Or I am the space for play of energy?

Am I now here as Ramdas
wearing mask and clown
dancing on my own?

Or am I in love with myself
struggling to save myself or
save my mask and clowns?

Have I to save myself from
perishable masks and clowns
which will fall of like old leaves?

I am here to know what am I
I am here for what I have to be
I must be happy where I am..

Is swimming here is wasting my
abilities
Is wrong to simply float where destiny takes..
or wasting abilities on thoughts?