Where Is Me? ? Poem by Prince ....

On my blood, betrayal knife feeds
How delightful it would be to kill me indeed
& with tears burning my face
No, crying is not what I need

Hiding inside my skin
Every touch feels like a sharp pin
Every smile is like a sin
& my emptiness no one can fill

Every sigh summons the past
Every tear sharpens the knife
To live is to die, to die is to die
Am I even alive? ? ! !

Why can't I be felt? ?
Why can't I be seen? ?
& after all those painful years
I still don't know where my heart has been

If I can't feel my heart
Does it mean I don't have one? ?
or is it that I lost my soul? ?
or may be I finally fired the gun? ?

Despite the pain, the bleeding & the sorrow
Still trying to hide in the darkness
But there always will be a part of me that is hollow
& I'll still lose myself behind the kindness

No matter how hard my tears try
I won't find myself until I die
& they'll always bleed, my unheard cries
& in the end I think I believed my own lies

I won't cry
No I won't cry
Oh, how I much I want to cry
But there's no more tears left
My eyes are dry