Why Do You Do The Things You Do Poem by Lauren Hudgens

Why do you do the things you do?
What do you want me to do?
If I could change the world for you, What would you
want it to be?
What could I do to change your life,
To take away the pain the terror, The cutting the
depression you put in me..
I sit here alone Desspriately crying out, Screaming
for the whole world to hear but as I scream no one
notices.. Am I here? Do I exist? ?
Where do I belong if I don't belong here?
No one seems to care..
So I pick up the knife getting ready to end this
nightmare.
The Abuse the Neglect it's too much...
I can't take it No more I'm ready to bust......
The Only thing I can do is 'Stop and Think'.. Is this
worth it? ? ?
Is my life really this bad to where I want to end it? ?

Would it get any better if I continue to go forward, Or
will It be the same?
(The knife is tempting, The Pretty Silver across my
skin)
It cuts the blood is pouring out..
Is this it? ?
Will the pain finally go away? ?
Should I stay or should I go, The Devil's tempting me
is this the only way? ?
Is this tourture really real?
Oh God please take this pain away..
Why do I stay to accept the pain? ?
Oh God am I insane? ? ?
Nothing seems to matter anymore, It's too much to
bare..
I look up and see him laughing, My sight is soo
dim....
Is that really him? ? ? ?