Why'' I Don'T Know, Poem by Monique Ornelas

I don't know you but I want to,
I don't love you but I want to,
I want my mom, but she'll never the same,
she got stressed at age 15 and met a new friend,
A friend no parent would like,
this friend's name is heroin,
I was not yet born but i've heard enought to know,
you dropped out of school,
got prehnant with my brother,
a year later me,
and you gave me to your parents,
both drunks,
mother, while you were away,
shooting god knows what up your arm,
I had endless nights full of tears,
full of 2 grown ups screaming,
I grew up in hell, and i'm living in hell still,
you've ruined me,
you've crushed all my sweet dreams,
and filled them will hateful horrible things,
I hate that i'll never have a mother,
I hate i'll never have someone to talk to,
but mother this is to you,
cheers to the person who hates me,
cheers to you and your new friend,
cheers for ruining my life,
and not caring at all,
maybe one day you'll wake up,
and realize that your ''friend'' isn't the right person to
get to know,
but I doubt that day will ever come,
and i'm happy I don't even bother hoping,
because there's not a single ounce of hope for anything in me,