Why Is It So Hard For Me Now? Poem by Shalom Freedman

Why is it so hard for me now?
Why is so difficult to get going?
Why is it so difficult to feel anything I do
really means much of anything?
Why am I so down now?

I have resisted this before
I will resist it again
Somehow along the way
Something will come and get me interested again
Somehow I will get out of it

But for now
I am in it deeply
And do not know how to get out.

Even writing this does not bring hope
The way ‘writing' once did

I am really down now
Perhaps writing this
Will get me going
A little.