Why Love Isn'T Enough Poem by Steph Kay

Meeting you never thought you’d make my world spin
How unique and different it has been
Flurry of conversations and emails that started it all
One more intimate than the last
That led us to develop a bond so fast
We didn’t know what this would entail
Yet you jumped first, I still had my sails
Prepared to go, to keep my distance
You fought to bring down my resistance
With time, I surrendered
As you gave me your heart and I gave you mine
Yet you will wanted more
As my foot was always one step out the door
Still afraid of the fall
Doubts if I should give my all
To someone I never met
Who I loved deeply over the net
Knowing that I've never met your eyes
Held you, felt your warmth
Still the thought of “someday”
Kept my heart at bay
That what we felt would be a small magnitude
That once we met, my heart would sing another tune
Then after so long, the day had come
We met, greeted and hung out like old friends
Comfortable from the very start
I was in it with an open heart
Waiting for the nerves and butterflies to start
To feel that spark
They never came
It was a shame
Left feeling disappointed but not discouraged
I remained encouraged for what I hoped to be one day
That would lie ahead for you and me
I went home that night
Thoughts in my head with what you thought of me
I had no clue
No hints
Left my mind in a sprint
Started to wonder if this had all been for naught?
No! I screamed out loud.
This won’t be allowed!
I meet you again, this time with hope
To finally know, so my heart can cope
With these thoughts and feelings that had me wheeling
Round and Round
No end in sight
Give me a reason not to fight
Then within at first sight, seeing you again
I smile, hug but met with an uneasy look
Left me feeling uncertainty if it was me
I let It roll off my back, not getting it break me
Wonder when you look in my eyes, what you see
Our talks remained low key
I wanted one sign, an epiphany
To let my doubts free
Then I thought, I can’t believe
After all we had been through
That this is what it has to be
Since our last meet
We became distant, not as close as we used to be
Guess our heart wasn't in tune with our physical chemistry
Even after everything we've shared emotionally
The thrill is gone
For there’s another song
For friends are what we must be