Why Me Poem by James Casey

Why Me

A mother’s love should be secure
Except when mother is unsure.
A child who's different from most
Always needs an understanding host.
Many diplomas and no degree
Weren't for problem kids like me
You never did what was right
You filled your child so full of fright.

You didn't keep me there at home
And made me feel so all alone.
You think it best for me to stay
Outside your house and never play.

How I need you will never know
As long as I am locked up so.
Beyond the gentle touch of friends
It's always you, that’s where it ends.

I don't need to hear others voices
Frightened, sad , and their rejoices.
Again, I need your gentle touch
It's you, dear mother, I need so much.

Thoughts crisscrossed and nothing fired
Always leave me feeling mad and tired.
With this damn life not desired
Makes me wish i all expired.

I understand you want the best.
But keeping me from all the rest
I can't take constantly being beaten
Can't you see the horror of my situation

Time and time again I’d aspire
Wishing you’d come put out this fire.
Stuck inside this box of flame
You only know I know my name.

There’s so much more that I can grasp
But you don’t get it, so I gasp
For another try at learning
While I stand here always burning.

Now all others, fail to understand
I can’t reach you, never at hand
Concern is not what’s needed here.
Kindness will always get you there.

Everything you try to do,
Demonstrates your love for you.
Eventually I will go away
So you'll never hear me say.

Oh, my mother, I loved you so.
Why did you want to let me go?

Jim 1954