Why Me? Poem by Kelsey Decker

Once in a while, I smile
Yet deep inside I'm crying, broken
No one can see what I'm hiding
For a sadness like mine may burden
There's not a joy left in me

At night I'm in my head
Wondering to my self "Why me? "
Why must I live in the life I am
A life of sorrow and sadness
One I cannot bare to live no more

I do what I can to survive
Smile day after day doing my best
To hide the sorrow in my eyes
Hiding the pain with a smile
Hoping one day the pain goes away
For as of now all I can do is smile

A place I alone can be
One where I can be me
For I alone only want
Want to be free understood
Yet somehow they still ignore me

Why must I always be invisible
Out of site, never seen
For to some I am nothing
A nobody that's unwanted
Why must it be me? Why?

Not a hello or goodbye
A lost cause, like I've never existed
Tossed out like yesterdays trash
Forgotten pushed away
For everyone despised me so

Once more I asked why me?
Why must I live in this life
One that has treated me wrong
For if only they knew
Knew I just want to belong

I smile day after day
Laugh night after night
Always hiding behind a mask
For being strong is all I can be
Yet I still Wonder "Why me? "

Every now and then
A smile appears for real
Yet can they hear me scream
saying "just except me"
For not a day goes by do I wonder
Will I ever see the day I axcually smile?