Why Now Poem by Lizelle 'Leasel' Martins

The very thought of it
Possibility of it
The very idea of it
The likeness of it
Bring so much happiness
A pure delight

But then Reality
Rages through it all
My Thoughts
My every Possibility
My very Idea I ever had
And clouds everything
In total darkness

With such a force
That it numbs me
Of any Hope
Any faith
I ever had

Why Now?
Why Now oh Lord!

Please!
This is my Plea
No may Prayer
Guide me though this
Hold me through this
As I am broken
Too weak
To think I will be okay
And make it
As short lived as it might be

Why Now Oh Lord?