Will I Ever Find Me Poem by Shirley Harrison

Am I ever going to smile again?
maybe my smile is permanently gone?
along with my laughter
forever in the past?
will I ever be able to whistle again?
or enjoy watching the birds
taking a bath in the summer rain?
not even seduced by a magnificent rainbow
I don't know how to cry
I've lost all my tears, there must be a river overflowing somewhere?
and now?
now I'm just lost, lost inside myself...

will I ever find me?