Will I Ever Know Poem by Rachel Phillips

I Lay In Bed At Night
I Lay Still And Wide Awake.
I Feel Cold, I Feel Pain.
Pain All Over My Body,
Pain I Never Felt Before,
The Worst.

I Feel The Urge To Scream,
I Dont, I Dont Because
There Is A Baby
In The Next Room.

This Pain Is Unbelivable
I Lay Here And Wonder
If Its Worth The Pain,
All The Tears Thy sheads.

Is This How Life Supports
To Be Like.I Wonder If
This Pain Will Ever Go Away,
But How?

Do I Need To Slit My Wrist
Maybe It Will ConqureThe Pain
Or Will It Make It Stonger?
Will I Ever Know?