Will You Help Me Through Poem by Jessie Lee

When my world closes in around me
When the walls crumble down
i can count on you
to never let me frown
i need alot of help sometimes
but nothing i do is good enough
to make you, myself or anyone else happy
whats wrong with my life
whats wrong with me
why do i hate everything so much
why cant i trust many people
is it cause ive been hurt so often
i wish i could trust everyone
but not many have proved
that they care for me
wont abandon me like so many before
I need some help
i need my friends
but who are true
and who are fake
i wish i knew but ill never truely know
until im left all alone
when something goes horribly wrong
when i just wanna quit
when that happens and i almost leave
will you still be here
the lies you say leave me in the dark
why do you do that
what did i do to make you hate me so
i know ive done a few things
i regret most
the one thing i wish not to regret
is ever meeting you
if your here for me ill be here for you
always
i dont abandon people
but people abandon me
why am i so hated
why am i so stupid
why do i ruin everything good
all the good that is now
will all end in the near future
all will hate
all will see my heart on the saddest day ever
why was i chosen to be here to live my life
im sorry for who i am
im sorry for what ive done
im sorry i could never make you happy
im sorry that im just not perfect
if i dont get myself together
youll watch me fall apart
Who i am will always hate who ive been
and who i am will never look forward to who i will become
it cant be good
it never has or will
when i put other before myself
all i get is pain in return
why do you hurt me so
you say you hate life
glad you know how i feel
dont do something stupid
ill hate myself for it
i want you to be okay
and i wont rest till you are
ill worry
ill cry
youll be lucky if i dont almost go over the edge
ill be so worried bout you
that youll worry bout me
ill go outta control
youd be happy i have good freinds that can stop me
my life is hell
and we all know it
but no one will admit to it but me
i wanna run away
i wanna leave all my mistakes behind
my heart says im sorry
but my mind says ill never be fully forgiven
im still waiting for
that time when i know all is right
when my life has finally started to make sense
when i know who is here for me and who isnt
why does everyone say im specail and unique
why cant i see why
whats so great about me
what has ever been so good about me
that anyone would even like me
wen will this all stop
im not sure
tell me what i should do
let me be invisible or let me go
if your not goona help then leave me alone
but one day ill thank you for being here by my side
if you decide to stay
I will love you for now and forever
but im sorry i cant be perfect
its never to late
but its goona take a long time
before i can say i truely like myself again
When will this day come?
will it ever come
lets wait and see.