Wings That Need To Fly Poem by Fired Heart

I wish I knew if you were alright.
While I sleep
I feel as though I’m tossing and turning to your heart beat;
I have had many sleepless nights.

I know I shouldn’t be thinking of you,
But it’s hard to wipe away a relationship
That took up so much of my life and time.
I guess in my mind you will live forever;
A memory that will not die.

I wonder if you ever think of me?
Of course, I know you do.
Our hearts and souls were tied so closely together,
The knot cannot simply undo.

I am so angry at myself for letting it get this far.
Why did I let you hurt me for so long?
Why did I always feel I needed to be punished
For something I had never done?

Let me go...let me be free
Let me fly away somewhere you cannot catch me.
My wings are aching and my mind is spinning
Let me go...let me go...

I know time will heel me,
But I need to know when that will be.
I can still hear you and smell you,
Your cool shadow keeps passing over me.

Your presence ligers all around me,
Suffocating me, tying me down,
Flooding my mind so much
I feel as though I’m going to drown

Let me go...I’m scared,
I cannot let anyone come close.
The wall you have made me build
Is one I fear may never be knocked down.

I hope you are alright
Even though you are haunting me
I know I will be fine.
It’s only the quiet moments I feel like this,
I am happy we said our last goodbye.

(7/9/06)