Winning From Within Poem by Christian Ndukwe

I wish I don't feel the way I feel sometimes
I wish the odd never crosses my mind at all
I thought coming to Him will be an end to all
But lo and behold it's not as I thought at all
Though I be a new creation now but the scar;
I still fight to deal with the mark left by the old guy

Since everyone else looks so strong and pure
I put up a mask to appear as though I am too
Instead of seeking for a way to overcome
I pretended everything was what it seems
But within me I know I need some help
I hate to see the old rising up in me again

Later my mind was made up to be set free
So I cried to God to make me feel nothing
But deep within I know what was wrong
I know I do allow myself to wander off
I know the environment that puts me there
The things I allow around my world inside
The things I allow around my world outside

People complain of the temptation without
My real problem is just the one within
The one that the tempter bears my name
I know the strength of the tempter without
Is the weakness and failures of me within
No one has ever been conquered without
Who was not first defeated within

The victory I crave for finally came
The day I began to renew my mind it came
The day I gave myself to godly thought alone
Submitting daily to the Holy Spirit of God
I removed myself from the trigger within
Thoughts and mind pictures that is not of God
And I avoided the wrong environment without
How will I describe the peace I now have within
What a great joy! You can see it in me without.