With Love, Death Poem by RiNi Joseph

Part 1

I know I have a few months
Of little life in me.
I wish it was longer.
There's the whole world left to see.

Time is moving faster
Now that it's almost up.
There's no more point in fighting
It's time that I gave up.

What hurts me the most
Is the fact I'm leaving you
It hurts me to know that
The memories to make are few.

But I take our days and memories
With me to my sleep
Just in case I don't wake up,
If my sleep is too deep.

I know that you're afraid
And truth be told, so am I.
It takes my whole weak heart
To convince myself, soon, I'll die.

Part 2

I know I have just few weeks
And all my dreams are of you
So much happiness, so much life!
I wish it was really true.

I know I hid it from you
I didn't want to face the facts.
Please do forgive me,
Because this apology is my last.

It hurts to see you angry.
Angry with God and life.
You don't know why this is happening,
But at least to meet you, I was alive.

But was that really a boon?
‘Cause it's harder now, to leave.
But the moments that I had with you
Was more joy than I could receive.

I don't see you smile anymore.
It's hard to say it's you.
You don't let me pamper you either;
Neither joke anymore too.

Part 3

I know I have just few days
And still, you hold your tears -
You don't cry in front of me
Nor expose me your fears.

You try to make me feel at peace
By smiling - at least trying.
But your eyes deceive your expression
Expose that it's lying.

It hurts to know the eventuality -
The fact that this will all end.
But with it, so will I
But your relief will suspend.
And it also hurts to know
That one day you'll move on
And the probability of the possibility
That our memories will be gone.
You'll marry another girl.
She'll be perfect, I'm sure.
But it still breaks my heart -
I had hoped it would be me.

But I want you to be happy.
I want you to be strong.
If it's another girl, the solution
Then I won't think of it as wrong.

Part 4

I know I am dying
I can feel the pain take over.
And yet, I can still feel your presence
And can see our memories hover.
It is taking over my body.
I can not feel myself.
I feel like I am floating.
I feel the lifelessness engulf.
I can see you - staring at me
You've still got so much hope.
I wish that you could know
That I'll always be by your side.

There is silence in the room
Everyone's crying now
Except you, continuing
Staring at the one you love.

You fall onto the ground.
The truth is sinking in.
Tears roll down your cheeks.
I wish that it didn't.
I'm sorry I didn't stay for long
Our dreams are now in cover.
I'm sorry I couldn't survive
And that now I'm your dead lover.