Wonderings Poem by layla joseph

Theirs so much left unsaid
So much left unasked
That this rift that stands between us
Can never be fully healed

There is so much I could never tell you
So much you didn’t want to no
Like that it was a week before Easter
That my little baby girl died

Or that her name was to be
Sapphire rose
Cause it signified a happy part of my childhood
A part the pain could never touch

Or that there are still times
When I wonder if I could go back to him
Even after every thing he did
Just to feel that someone loves me

Or that blossom was the first thing that showed me love
A love that I ached for my family to show me
That when I couldn’t talk to anyone else
I always talked to her
And that I feel like I just killed the one person that loved me
All because the ones that never could told me to