Words Unsaid Poem by Fahad T Hamza

How many nights
we've dreamt of future…

Talks
With the thickness of talks.
We have uttered a lot to moon and its sky
Being the two leaves of anticipation and hope
Looking towards the Heavens:
that ‘the stars are our kids'
that ‘I will be a stellar in your abdomen'
Oh you, gave me heart
Where did we use to impinge due to stimulant love?
Tell me please, without hesitation
What was the secret of your arrival and departure?
That day - she went
without saying a word.

Oh love
You filled my belly with ember
At last I am alone…?
Oh, my love
Oh, my love
Was it me, towards me
the way that you took wrongly…?
Dear,
When you delve your memory,
Will you ever remember one?
Whose name was disregarded…?
Things which I told you from heart
You wrote it in water.
Oh, my dear, You
whose inside I am…
When you take another road
Curtained with conscience
In spluttered mind, in you
Lashing, will belch
The sensitive smile;
Which is not deliberate.
My solitude is your love's remnant.
When ancient history been torn away
From the life history,
You may find my name
In the lost chapter.
If your hatred is deeper than your love towards me
Unfold it…
In its solidity and depth.
I have been - for now - loving
Any of your essences.

My dear,
Be more harmonious
Towards the days ahead.
Nothing to pray but your goodness.
Quarrel with me
Wrangle with me
Sticking to love
Saying ‘why did you look at that girl…? '
Or ‘don't try to dominate me'.
Tease me
Saying ‘kiddo… you are younger than me'.
Stay away from me
Cuddling the heart,
Take it all as badge of love.

Oh, my dear
I had started in you.
In the course of memory
You never ceased, neither me.
As long as we are
never melts love.
Thenceforth, my love will not knock on your door.
I flake from your heart
Like leaves fall from a tree.
If you attain calmness
By reproaching me,
I am going away…
with happiness in its height
without saying a word.
Loving you
I am going.
That day -he
Burnt himself.

____fahad 13/12/16

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Come dear…
Enjoy my nudity
Enjoy the pain of the one who got exposed and deported
Enjoy the sight of my corpse
The living dead.
I; will be understood by none
That's an exhilaration too.
I myself; transmigrated to another self.

Come closer
Enjoy my lurid nudity
Watch my reddish, crunched love
Watch my burnt flank
You won't see; my heart
You won't see; my life.
Don't keep me in your heart
As an endearment scar.

I had no place in her home
Nowhere.
In front of her house
A mimosa will germinate
From my pinda daan
As a badge of my heartache
It will sting on her palm.

That day - stiff blood spilled
On her, as well as on him.

***

Tomorrow's morning
Will welcome you.
At dawn; a death news of lonely burnt soul.
You will scream
When the green veins burst.
The moment you become alone
Away from fellow people
Your language of quietness
Will go stuck
Amid hundreds of memories
You will remember
The one who wrote
‘my life flows by way of your love',
The day he came
To tell you something,
You went away
Crying, saying I have nothing to say,

In rain
We walked together,
In summer; when he gifted
The whole spring
Blossoming the last flower,
The days we chanted
As it is heartbeat itself
Saying
That we are together forever.

At sunset
Like a perfect day fades away
She will be telling her husband
Profoundly sticking to him
About the sea and rainbow
That
‘The rainbows are
Ocean's lost love
As the sky wedded her'

The same night
A funeral pyre burns
The same night
A bed sweats

***

A longing
Once more
Will you say once more?
That you loved me as its your life

Look…
Look at those stars.
I am the baby
Who couldn't be born in you;
Our pampered dream.
Put a beautiful rose
Reddened with your thick blood
On the mausoleum of the one
Who lived in your heart.
Then, let me imagine
Rooting from petals of that red rose
Through the veins of its stem
Your love will kiss mine
The great moment of choking.
Underneath the earth,
It was with the moisture of my blood
Your home garden's shoe-flower
Reddened with splendorous brightness.

My dear…
Put your ears
On the heart of five-petalled flower.
That's my heart, you must know
Which will chant your name
Till the last breath.

Kiss me…
Let me be well adjusted.
My lady love
Love
Only love.

That day
On her eyes
He scripted:
"Each love is a resurrection
And each lovelornness
Is a Crucifixion"

Oh, my beloved…
Let's be together
being two dragonflies
seeking eternity
where the clouds end.


____Fahad 06/09/2017