You worry and worry
about when he leaves
because maybe
he won't come back.
He always does.
You clean the house again.
You fluff the pillows.
He will notice;
notice your smile.
Stare at the wall.
You never liked that paint.
It is burgundy,
like your new hair.
He will notice;
notice your love.
He never does.
He never does.
Write it in your journal.
Write it on the wall.
In marker write
'He never does'
He never loves.
Pace the wooden floors.
They will always creak.
He will fix it,
promised he would.
Promised he would
marry you.
You check your silent phone
You ignore your friends.
Ignore your friends.
Check it again.
He didn't call.
Change your phone's background.
You hate it's blank screen.
He did not call.
He never does;
not anymore.
Something is wrong with you.
Change your hair again.
Paint your nails red.
Paint your heart blue.
You fall apart.
You worry and worry
about when he leaves
because maybe
he won't come back.
He always does.
Then one day, he just doesn't.
What will you do
when all you knew;
knew how to do
was worry
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