You Are Too Real To Be Here Poem by Electrical Rainbow

your presence
is the strongest absence
when it comes
into my heart
your laugh your
wink your scent
every yours
feels like
i feel nothing
like you are too real
to be here -
like even more real
than the darkness
hunting down my soul
for the sunniest endless days

i better turn back
and leave
because here
your presence
is the strongest absence
when it comes
like you are too real
into my heart
to be here -
like even more real
than your absence
when all i can feel
is but your goddamn absence
the strongest strangest presence
that ever came into my heart

so i better turn back
(you are too real)
and leave
(to be here)
.

(for my psychotherapist)