You'Ll Never Understand Poem by Amber Millar

You'll never understand,
Because you don't want to,
If you took the time to look inside,
You'd see how many tears really pass through these eyes,
How many times I've tried to scream for help and no one has heard,
How much it hurts when you overlook me like I'm not good enough,
And how I have to try not to fall apart,
When nothing's right and everything's wrong,
If you really looked,
You'd see how much I really loved him,
And how much I really miss him,
How much I try to keep it together,
When I'm consumed by grief,
I really wish you'd try,
Try, for heaven's sake,
That's all I ask,
If you saw the real me,
You'd feel remorse,
Because, between you,
It's you that's made me like this,
Twisted up inside,
So so angry,
And sad, too sad for words,
A tear is sliding down my soft cheeks,
I don't brush it away and try to compose myself,
Why wipe my tears if I still want to cry?
Why give up if I still want to try?
So, I won't give up trying,
Not quite yet,
You've won the battle but you'll never win the war,
I'll try and make you see,
Make you see what you've turned me into,
Only then will I be able to go on,
Please understand,
It's all I ask...