Shelly Langley

Is there a part of me that always existed?
Vivid color thoughts drift through my mind.
I'm an instrument who nature uses as a paintbrush.
Nature has not revealed their true identity.
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I hear him laugh again and again.
It must be him, his cartoon friend.
Not too soft, not too loud,
Not too mean, not too proud.
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I'll try to not think of you.
But it's truly hard not to,
To see all your disguises
Your compromised prizes.
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I crawl through my mind at night.
When the lights turn down, I might.
Turn into a twilight state.
And I find my rage and hate.
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Numb to it all and happy inside.
Don't mind the dishes or the bills are not done and unpaid.
I can't deal with the emotional ride.
Don't mind to see my apathy fade.
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Please tell me.
What has been hurting you?
Please tell me
What can I do?
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My house is a mess.
Can’t fit in my dress.
That I bought last year.
I’m having myself a beer.
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In starry night of twilight sleep,
I hear confessions of locked souls keep.
As if I could ease and cease their pain,
From troubled souls existing insane.
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life's game
women's tame
the sad bliss
of the lost kiss
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I remain sexual disturbed.
I watch you galivant freely.
The chastity key I gave to you.
You stole from me, never returned.
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With new beginnings, indistinguishable circumstances remain untouched, evaded, and sinisterly disregarded.
Maniacal apathy resides in the mind of the love of my life.
There is no respite from the years of alienation.
In this house, it is vacant.
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I woke up today.
I have been lost.
Where am I?
What happened?
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I stepped outside into my noisy backyard.
Beyond the fence, and the glasses shard.
Beyond the stream, the leaves, and trees.
Are all the noises that make me freeze.
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Mine are pretty and kind, and kind of sly to the untrained eye.
My only friends throughout the night of endless dreams.
And yet, they are my only friends it seems.
Distant people through a kolida scope colors of true distorted truths.
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I look at you from time to time.
I wonder why you are so blind.
20/20 does hind sight seem.
You are not on my team.
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