River someday Poems

My life plays out before me
It twists and turns
The mystery that it brings is terrifying
I've tried to leave it all behind
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Trapped in a world of indicision
Facing forward; Facing backwards
Serious; then silly
Delightful; then dreadful
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Screaming inside
All this time dying
Inside lying
Always hiding
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Your face was radiant
Your voice was strong
Your arms were safe
Your eyes turquise in the winter
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When I see your face
My world starts to spin
When I hear your voice
My heart starts pounding
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Sitting in silence
Starring at the dirt
Wishing, wanting
To fly away
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Caught up in school life
Church going stopped
I called and called
All ever hearing
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When the world was saying no
We fought back with everything we had
When our parents didn't agree
We held on that much harder
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My eyes are hidden underneath the dark
I dig my black nails into your heart
Does it hurt?
Let's see you survive
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Awaken in the dark to the empty space you use to fill
Your face pasted on my mind screwing with my soul
I put down the blade
I won't bleed because you won't even miss me
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