Tebogo Teddy

The strongest I've ever been.
So solid I won't crack ,
At least not in public.
Even in my sobriety I still stand out.
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The plan was to beat the record.
Mid way running, trying to sprint i had  a panic attack.
The more I Pushed it would hit harder.
Felt like my chest was tearing apart.
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The used to be overated love is now underrated.
We can't tell what we feel when it's uncertain.
We no longer yearn for it.
Love slowly became a choice,
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The essence of life is life n us.
We recreated the world,
We gave it life of its own.
Devided by multiple departments of life.
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The days of fantasy,
Comes with the nights of reality.
When days bleeds with caution.
The nights pour all its weight on me.
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stuck or trapped by non human emotions of love.
The beauty fades in the eyes of your capture.
Manipulated by reasons not the heart.
You become more delicate to add into their dominance.
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Surgical blade, thirsty for my blood.
My undecided mind shaking my hand off
My wrist ready to bleed,
But my heart is yearning for another chance.
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As we both hiding from the truth because we believe it's gonn hurt even more.
The spark dimmed and we ignored.
We believe it's for the best to be consumed by fantasy.
The thought of reality comes with regrets and we both can't afford.
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She tried to be the seed you planted
But you forgot the seed will eventually water itself.
You keep on drowning the seed, making it grow with anger and rebellion.
You thought planting a seed means having full control,
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Wanna tell a piece of my story but I won't let me weaken to that point.
I keep everything all in, Reason I'm just a sad soul.
A facade I put on in public is so believable.
They tempt me by sharing their problems,
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HARD TO TELL WHO'S SICK OF WHOM?
IS IT LIFE OR IS IT ME?
I'M BOTHERED BY SOMETHING, CAN'T TELL WHAT.
IS LIFE HARD FOR ME TO QUIT?
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wake me up honey
My thoughts turned into Ecstasy
I've never been this high.
Losing touch with reality
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Told you I'm complicated.
My identity is undefined.
I have no courage left,
The tone of the inside voices is unbearable.
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Intoxicated by deppression and anxiety.
Well, they say drugs are the worst,
I say deppression and anxiety.
The emotions is my organic Ecstasy
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Since we are defined by what we do,
I try my best to do good.
The worst keeps finding a way,
Even though, we move.
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Relationships aren't for me,
He be treating me like a  schedule.
My words aren't heard.
I feel nothing or something that's why I'm still around.
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My heart is heavy,
My heart could stop,
My blood won't flow,
My arteries  could lose pulse.
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I'm haunted by my past.
The past I can't tell.
The images are clear,
Everything feels recent.
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the outside is obvious.
All that smirks,
Wrinkles on the sides of my mouth when i smile,
The loud laugh,
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A slender
With a nice structured body.
Tall and glistening.
Comparison didn't occur.
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