vivian pena

As i sit here bitting my lip, a distant
memory comes to mind, something
is missing that I can not find.
My day's in here are cold and gray but
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I may appear to happy and all good on the outside, but I'm not. I play a role like gangsters on death row, who smile an laugh and reminise on the past. But then reality comes out to play and then they realize they'll be headed to there grave's.
Where I'm from there is no such thing as happiness and the sun
never shines.I'am used to the darkness, so when the sunlight
peep's through the crack's I'm instantly blinded.
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I know the loss is extreme but I'm asking you to leave... Stop talking to me, I don't want to do these kind of thing's.
I don't want to runaway. I don't to say goodbye. Most of all
I don't want to see my family cry.
Get out of my life I've asked! but the demon's say they wont!
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For just one day can you take me away to a paradise? I really need it right now because I'm tired of my life.
I'm tired of struggling just to get by.
I'm still living in poverty and I don't understand why....
Why must I live like this? Why must my daughter sleep on a couch?
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It's hard for me to say this
But I'am going to have to face it
I miss you...
I'am not going to lie, I had hated
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I love him to death, but dead my soul has become.
He says he loves me but to me it seems as,
though his emotions
have gone numb.
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My heart ache's because I know
I can not call you mine. I sit here crying
a river of tear's because I've been in
love with you this entire time.
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