To my future self,
I greet you warmly from the past and with struggle i begin to say
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Today i posed a question to the Lord
Asking him honestly what he made me for
I futher explained in my question posed
I am weak, I faulter, and am more imperfect than most
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Emptyness, loneliness, abandoned, to blame
Unworthy, broken, rejected, ashamed
Why.... why am i here, why not take me now
I surrender in tears, my life to you i vow
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To My Future
To my future self,
I greet you warmly from the past and with struggle i begin to say
if you are reading these words congrats, youve made it farther than today.
You've made it beyond my now and are living in your present time
Where i hope we have managed to be happy, by leaving our sorrows all behind
I tell you now that my present is good but not quite grand
Ive recently discovered my failures and am trying to understand.
Trying to push past my wrongs that would have me torment my mind
Trying to look forward, doing good, in hopes of leaving the torment all behind
I think its safe to tell you we have suffered and endured much pain
Mostly caused by ourselves, we too have regretable shame
But i want to say it must be okay we made it to where ever you are
And i need you to always remember where weve come from and how incredibly far.
Stay humble always and remember to thank god for it all
Remember the blessings you have been given even after our repititious fall
Im sure in your present you find struggles still banging at your door
So i want you to remember to stop doing our will and take refuge in the lord.
If you should find yourself distracted from the most important thing in life
remember to put the worldy things down and make Jesus the focus of your sight.
Remember the peace i feel now in the comfort of a greater power
Remember to look for gods gifts during your most terrifying hour.
Remember to show love to your wife as much you humanly can
Because through all of your weaknesses she has made you a better man
Remember to love your children and invest your time in them well
Remember what you needed at their ages so you may help them to prevail
Remember life was mean as a youth, especially when dad wasnt there
Remember mom was most helpful but how you wished dad would show his care
Remember your role as a father, for your kids will do as you do.
Remember our long term goal was to leave behind a better man than you.
Remember to treat your wife like christ treats his church
Remember to love her and protect her even though it hurts
Remember to love your wife openly, gently, and true
Your daughters will learn this and will seek a man like you.
Remember to make jesus the center or your world, heart and mind
So when we finally enter his kingdom, a place for us we may find.
Love, live, laugh, pray and should you fall, then rise
Dont quit, sulk, despair or hate and if you cant see then open your eyes.