Alice Silvers Poems

I am dying
I wonder why this happened to me
I hear him coming back to finish me off
I see nothing, my vision blurred with blood
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There`s a boy in the attic
Pulling the wings off angels
His brain filled with static
Hiding in the dark
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I am presumed psychotic and in denial
I wonder if I will ever leave this place
I hear people screaming down the halls
I see nurses rush to quiet them
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As you stare up at me with
Your cold, dead eyes I try to
Remember what you were like,
Full of life.
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I am hurt
I wonder how you could leave me on this earth alone <
I hear the words I never wanted to hear
I see my world spinning out of control
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I am a photograph
I wonder why we can`t stay this way
I hear everything
I see everyone and everything
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The longer I have to go through this pain, this torture, the more
I start to break down, I start to lose the fight.
If I lose this fight, there will never be anything to fight again,
there will just be nothing. Nothing at all.
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This war with myself never ends. It just gets worse. There is always pain. Always suffering. It doesn`t get better. The pain never ends, never fades, just drifts into the background. To imagine a time where I won`t feel this pain is impossible.
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I am cut
I wonder how I let it get this bad
I hear footsteps
I see my blood drip
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