This is my life. My rhymes and poems express my feelings at that time. Although they r mostly dark and depressing i think some are funny too. I don't pretend to have lived a good or easy life but there has been alot of smiles and crys along the way. I am still a young man although almost 30. Life for me goes from good to bad to worse and back again. Round and round in a circle. Failure is all i know and my now obvious mental illness cuts me deep inside. I don't know much but i know this life doesn't get easier and I don't know how much fight I have left. Drugs may have kept me alive but now this life I live is bleak and unforgiving. And I am now paying for all the bad i have done. I didn't think i'd make it this far so i guess everyday i am still here is a gift and should be appreciated even though i dont always do so. I've been creative with cleaning up my material... please leave some comments... enjoy!
half a decade later....im still kicking and although almost nobody seeems to have interest in my art i have a window of light close by....
My tears are salty drops of failure, Rolling down my face like there’s no tomorrow,
Living every day like my last, Watching the present turn into the past.
Thoughts and memories intensify, Emotions wild like a crazy guy,
Not knowing how to speak, Physically, emotionally and mentally weak.
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Melted cheese oozing from my ears
Erratic thoughts building fears
My tears are making my beer salty
Near enough to see but too far to touch
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Its not about you anymore
There’s bigger problems i've ignored
When there’s no one left to call
I wont know what to do anymore
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what goes up must come down, a train wreck waiting to happen
when love is lost, I can't be happy again
it'll rain for weeks, don't go outside, stay off my feet
your no longer by my side, still I'm glad we met
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