When you are ambivalent of something,
You think about what you did to deserve all that happens.
You ask yourself “why me? ” and “why is this happening to me? ”
It is very baffling and difficult to believe!
You wish it could be just a nightmare.
But... it is not.
It happened for a certain reason.
It is real and true.
And, In Gods mind it is expected to be like that!