How could I define love
When I have given it a million times
But pain is returned to me intentionally
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Why do I still want?
When you could hardly feel yourself
Because of the deep pain of a broken heart
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Please teach me to move on
For me to live alone
Please teach me to stop yearning
For me to strive more
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There is this feeling
Holding for a hope..
There is this feeling
Strong to dream of…
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Is it fulfilling to hurt someone?
Is it satisfying to lie around?
Is it rewarding to deceive?
Is it gratifying to see her shed a tear?
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I kept on thinking
Is it hard for you to understand?
I kept on thinking
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What will it feels like….
For a warm hug and a sweet kiss
Every first minute of the morning
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I have given you my trust
With all my heart and all
I entrusted you my love
Without any doubt, and gave it all
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Your eyes show's honesty
Your smile warms me deeply
Your words comforts me
And lift my soul to bliss
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It’s nine o’clock in the evening and here I am
Scanning my mind to set my feelings free
As much as I wanted to keep it inside me
But everyday a tear fells on my cheeks.
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How to trust when you felt the pain of betrayal?
How to share happiness when it was taken away?
How to care when you had never felt it with someone?
How to listen when you had heard so many lies?
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'I have fallen in-love in many ways, but have experienced too many pains. I am a hopeless romantic person, always dreaming of a happy ending and beautiful fairy tales...but this dreams never come to reality for me.... No intention of searching but just to mend and keep what God's love within me.' Let it be 90% God's will and 10% my will!)
How Could I
How could I define love
When I have given it a million times
But pain is returned to me intentionally
How can I dream of true love
When I have seen how my love have been thrown away
Much faster than they thought of inflicting pain
How could I wait for love
When time was not even given from the start
And ending was always seen before it happens
How could I feel trust
When it was just a word of promises
That he planned to destroy it any way.
How could I feel secure
When he expect me to give it to them
And for them to take it away from me
How could I feel support
When I was obliged to do it myself
And for them to watch me fall
How could I feel passion
When he just need pure pleasure
and not wanting the connection
How could I ask for happy endings
When they intended it only to stay In love with themselves
and not dare to share.
Feb 10,2009 7: 19pm