Confusion Undastood Poems

*Heavy Sigh*
I don't even know why I even considered to try,
Don't even know why I would risk hurt again
To feel for a minute what I know to me is forbidden.
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I cried…
Today I cried, tears spilling down my face,
Droplets of water just running down,
The kind you shed when your heart aches,
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So here, I was in the middle between the present and the past,
Leaning towards the present as it had more intrigue and clout.
Amusingly though, as life always is, my past and present were in the same predicament.
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Pain continuously runs through my veins,
Yet i continuously smile through this
continuously laugh for others comfort,
for others enjoyment while I suffer.
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He glosses over me,
He lingers on her smile,
His eyes say the words held by his tongue.
I stand aside watching, waiting
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Today i cried like never before
Hurt rising to the surface.
Screams echoing loudly in my mind,
Guilt washed and engulfed me whole.
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Succes without love......
empty.
Joy without pain....
incomplete.
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You say I am cold and bitter,
You say I'm always mean.
You say that I'm a frustrating b$tch
Who makes you want to slap yourself and scream.
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Every day I wake up I think I am blessed
I think I am Special
I think today is a Good Day the Lord has made
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Muddled, my mind is as muddled as can be,
I look at you and words I cant seem to express
just float and sink and twirl around escaping my lips
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