*Heavy Sigh*
I don't even know why I even considered to try,
Don't even know why I would risk hurt again
To feel for a minute what I know to me is forbidden.
It's messed up it really is
That no matter how much I give
I always get f*cked in the end,
It didn't matter that i was more more than a lover
more to you than just a friend
I cooked, I cleaned, I loved, I cared
But at the end of the day confirmed were my fears
that you never loved me with the intensity I loved you.
As the sun sets in the evening
and all expecting it will rise again
was my hope that i would find the peices to my love torn apart
But never again will I have that vulnerability
To feeI special when I was really not,
Because for as long as I knew you, to you I was never beautiful
just cute or hot.
It is sad I gave so much
with only heartace being the gift of your love and appreciation.
Gone now are my tears, even my ability to feel
As I have now gone past cold and bitter
To numb and indifferent
my loveless fate indefinitely now sealed......
Very bitter/sweetly penned with so many of those love/hate emotions that come when one realizes one loves and gives more than the other is capable of... Reader feels your complex emotion of wanting to move foward, yet not quite knowing how....Very good Bonnie
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Wonderful..your works are really good :)