Courtney Pare' Cox

Its been awhile now since your hands have touched my body, my desire almost stinging
I was sharp then and you stood like a strong birch tree
sex was fun, passionate and new
you didn't go a day without making my skin become like the salty ocean
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Tonight i want my innocence trampled on
every time I look you in the eyes thoughts of us together rush through me like water from a fire hydrant
run your fingers down my breast as you undo the buttons of my dress
kiss my skin hot and pale like the white beaches of a different land
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Its been seven months to the day that your short life ended
your face now only smiles at me through my computer screen
too young to have felt loss such as this, I weep myself dry
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I did not mean to love you
but one often cannot stop those feelings from developing
eyes like crystal balls knowing me without having to try
you accepted me and for me that is
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A little boy smiles and its as if I can feel its warmth through the photograph
for I myself have a grin upon my face while looking back at him
so innocent and caring, you poor thing do you know what you will become
all your day dreams and school boy hopes snuffed out
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Like monarchs wing my eyes flutter open to the light of early morning
and image of serenity and calm lies before me
a sigh and deep inhale he moves closer arm around my waist
I drink it all in and my face breaks into happiness
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I am awoke by the ringing alarm of raised voices
and not the sweet shrill beep of the clock on the desk beside my head.
I place my feet upon the cold floor and stumble in the dark out into the hallway of my childhood home
My ears pick up the sound of my mommy's voice not melodic as usual but raised enough to frighten me
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The easiest thing about losing a love is that you watch your time with them repeat
the memories you shared with one another in photographs placed upon the oak mantel
the song on the radio that the two of you first danced to plays over and over again
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