december underground

C is for the compliments that you don’t give me
R is for the respect that I never see
A is for the annoying things you do and say
I is for the ignorance that makes me cry
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Help me, help me
Someone out there
Can anyone hear my cries?
Why don’t you care?
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Fantasies of perfection,
Dreams of redemption,
From a life of hate
Wishes of bliss,
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Is it possible to believe in more than what is here?
For joy and love and passion in life, instead of rain and fear
To have someone smile when they look at you, instead of frowns of disgust
To have someone to hold, care for and most of all to trust
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Time has flown by since the last time I’ve thought of you
I miss what we had; now you’re looking for someone new
I want to say I’m sorry, for what I put you through
I do still love you, although I was untrue
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I scratch at the wounds from before,
You don’t know what hides behind closed doors,
My body is riddled with emotional pain,
The past has come back to haunt me again,
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In this life
I bleed and I cry
For the pain inside to run away
Like my feelings
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See the deception
From he who lies
See the tears
From she who cries
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They come down upon us all
To end our hatred and sins
Possessed in our souls
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Love will find a way
Through the path where the wolves pray

I hear you calling
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The pain grows as i wait for you,
Must I always be played the fool?

Don’t leave me alone, stranded and scared,
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I am the shadow
Who once was the girl
Who believed in love and happiness,
But that is no longer
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I open the padlock and give him the key
What lay inside be a mystery
My glassy feelings lay there on the wall
He betrayed my trust and smashed them all
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The night falls without a sound, soulless are we.
The emotion for which you sacrifice yourself
Flares once, then dies,
Devoured by the dark abyss,
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Don’t waste your time on her
Spend all your time with me
Now that you’re under my spell
I’m not gonna let you free
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I feel as though I’m dissipating
From the pain of suffocating
The thought of death is so inviting
Why don’t I put it in writing?
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A friend likes to cut beneath the veins
How can she do this to herself, she said she can’t feel the pain
She started cutting more and not talking to me
She can’t possibly really want to die, I refuse to believe
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A father is a man, which you can look up to
Who is supposed to be there, to give you love and care
But I am blaming it all on you
You were none of those things, to love and to care
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I do not want to hide
The feelings that are inside
But the pain that is behind
Has always made me cry
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