Diane Kordas

Today I was sad,
I was sore
I'm so tired...
I'm tired of hiding it
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I feel stupid writing this but,
I miss feeling needed...
All of the days I was,
I've been replaced...again,
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Sometimes when you fall,
You just want to stay down,
Because you know,
When you finally stand back up...
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Is there something wrong with me?
Am I just a bother to you?
I'm sorry,
Must I leave?
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When you look at me,
I feel to be the only one you see,
You love me,
I love you too.
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It's obvious,
I'm not wanted
Or needed here.
It's obvious,
...

I miss you,
It's hard to write this down,
you're so amazing...
Will it be good enough?
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The pain inside me bubbles
Like a pot of water.
The pain must go, it must
Leave and never return to me.
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Music is there to express yourself.
Music helps you to find yourself.
Music completes me somehow.
Music is my milestone.
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I feel left out,
Unwanted by anyone.
I feel left out,
Because I am left out.
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My special stone,
It is gone,
It is missing,
My special stone,
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I feel as if someone is trying
To kill me, but slowly.
One day I'll be hurt physically and
Then the next emotionally.
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My dreams,
Are they telling me something?
I'm confused,
I'm spoken to, but not in person,
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Unwanted,
Unwanted to the human eye,
Unwanted mentally to humankind,
Do I really exist?
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I wonder if you had planned this...
I wonder if you ever really cared about me...
I wonder if I was right and this is all one big game to you.
Have you ever cared?
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What was it?
Your goal?
To make me cry?
To make me feel worse than death?
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No one cares about me,
Siblings are ignoring me,
Mother is too busy to see my tears or to care.
I don't like this,
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My tears run like rivers down my face,
No one sees,
It's hard to hide,
My tears that run,
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He doesn't want me,
He wants my body.
I mustn't trust him,
Yet I am so dumb I do.
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Do you really care?
Do I deserve this?
To be hurt...yet again?
Why do I still like you?
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