I never knew how much pain can hurt,
How much agony can come from death.
After the suffering is gone, then comes the hole in your heart.
The hole hurts worse than the pain ever did,
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Lost in numbness for years
Running from pain
Trapped in the freezing rain
Constantly numb
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Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
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I am without speech, for my words are attacking.
I am without sight, for it is clouded.
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The rain will fall to no end
The rain will fall around the bend
The rain will fall until you are blind
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Realize that I never liked you
Realize that I loved you
Realize that the world doesn't revolve around you
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This pain I cannot ignore.
It haunts me with such force I feel nothing more.
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The Pain Feels Good
I never knew how much pain can hurt,
How much agony can come from death.
After the suffering is gone, then comes the hole in your heart.
The hole hurts worse than the pain ever did,
And only then do you wish for the pain again.
When the pain returns you feel emotion again.
And that's what you start to want
To feel emotion, any emotion.
Pain is best because you're used to it,
You're used to it and so you revel in it,
You learn to love pain
So pain loves you.
It haunts you until you want pain more than anything
You wish bad things so you can have more pain.
And that is worse than anything else
Because you are officially at rock bottom.
Rock bottom is where I'm at.
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