Fatuma Abdi

They say I'm crazy
But I say they lazy
I made myself a vow
That they would one day bow
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Home, gives me this feeling that is unknown
Where father assumes I am a failure and mother is gone
Home where for every little mistake I am disowned
Where some run to as their sanctuary but I run away from it like it's a hailstorm.
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You took away my insecurities
And stood by me, giving me stability
Looking past my inabilities
You not only showed me humanity but you changed my personality.
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You probably with her right now
Talking about how am clinging onto you yet it's the other way round
Telling her that you can't get rid of me, Yet you chase me around
Telling me that You can't let go of me, yet you still hold onto to her
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Of the many memorable moments that I have of us, the one that stands out the most is my imagination of when you're giving me a bouquet, apologizing for the late night booty calls. Then I realize, it's all just in my imagination. You've never been one to apologize.
And I start feeling cheap, dirty and used.
In that moment I want to get away from you but the minute I see you again I wanna grow Gray with you.
You give me Mixed feeling and call it foreplay as you take me to the dark alleyway, where you first ignited my desires in flames and Have your way. As my insecurities dwindle away Just for a minute or two and you are done.
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Don't forget we grow up so fast
Don't forget that soon it'll be in the past
You try to drown me in the poison of my torturous past.
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