The warmth of heavy cover overshadows me
The moonless dark shines on my eyelids
My mind only grasping at the small things unknowing
As I escape my life
Every night seems a little longer,
trying to find my way in the dark.
Crawling through these endless thoughts,
hoping to reach the finishing line.
At a distance I see you
with a look of distant sorrow
or perhaps my perception of what life is like
to someone with no hope
you say your cold
yet I lie here next to you
you say you’re happy
In slow motion the drops appear,
coldly beating upon this worn façade.
Wearing away the last of all I am,
numbing me for all eternity.
Your eyes speak in silence
of disgust and shame
Piercing my thinning armor
slowly decaying my defenses
Played the game all my life,
guessing pieces of this enigma.
Dreading the unavoidable finish,
little by little outlining this image.
Within the words you speak,
softly whispering from behind your mask.
Soothing lost syllables calling me out,
from this ocean of hopelessness and guilt.
Each day I walk through your garden,
which you toiled incessantly.
Giving life with those beautiful, elegant hands,
cultivating all within your careful touch.