Jūkichi Yagi

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Unaccountably lonely in autumn.

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I'd like to see God in my dreams.

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On some days looking at the autumn sky I feel peace of mind.

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If I don't kill myself it is because I believe in Christ.


A DOVE

A dove's voice at the window . . .
I hear it most joyfully when my temperature is low.


SOLILOQUY IN BED

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They flow naturally.
What should I do with these tears?

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I'd like to spread zealously the name of Jesus Christ
who was crucified to save us.

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I'd like to recover soon
and spread the names of God and Jesus.

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There are nights when I fall asleep
to the sound of the waves meshing with my thoughts.
There are times when I can't sleep at all.

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Tomiko,
I don't mean that.
I mean that if I must die anyway
then please let me die with a beautiful heart.

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Tomiko,
when we knew happiness together,
those times when I was to blame for things,
I can now see very clearly.

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Seen through the window, the sky and flowing clouds—
I turn away from their excessive seriousness.

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Tomiko,
I can't stand being in bed alone.

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O Heavenly Father,
please save this feeble body and soul
and let me work on behalf of the light of God and Christ.

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Oh,
what can I do?

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Days of Purgatory.
Days of Purgatory.

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Tomiko,
when not calling God's name
I'm calling yours.

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Clouds float by in the sky
and
are looking at me abed.

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I will be together with the heart of God.

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Momoko and Yooji,
it's painful that I can't see you.
I'm happiest at having been your father
and not anyone else's.

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Ah, how wonderful the sound of those waves.
I'd love to go to the beach.

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Tomiko,
I am ill
and thinking of you as my mother.
...

In early winter,
I look down from a roof top garden.
The town of Kobe gives me
a look that is strangely off-putting
yet reminiscent of a streak of undeniable longing.
Only towards the mountain,
is it bright and clear as a fine autumn day.
Is it maybe because I'm looking down from a height?
What a pitiful sight it is with endless smoke rising gracelessly.
The town is evenly
coloured in dull steel blue
and appears disorderly.
I am pierced by an orderly streak of sorrow.
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冬のはじめ
屋上庭園のうへからみる
神戸の街の
妙によそよそしい
そのくせ　ひとすぢのたちがたいあくがれのにじむだ顔、
山のほうだけは
秋ばれのようにすみきってあかるい、
たかいところからみるゆえだらうか
まやまやとたちのぼるむすうのけむりのいたましさ、
いちように
くすんだはがねいろの街のいろどり、
ざつ然としたそのすがたは
整然としたひとすぢのかなしみとなってつんざいてくる
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It's a bright sunny day.
Look out the window!
The gardener is working all day up in the trees.

It's a hot day.
Who is it in my heart,
though I haven't asked him,
pruning all day long?
...

Inside the lead
a butterfly goes flying.
...

I want to be an angel.
I want to be a flower.
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Isn't there any power
that can consolidate this sorrow?
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want to love a jar.
Today—oh!
O jar, that arises in the calmness of my heart!

You have nothing in you.
Your emptiness!

O jar, my heart
strangely trembles
calling you, "My jar
...

O heart,
I'll see you later.

But
please come back again.

After all
You're better off here.

O heart,
I'll see you later.
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Gazing at this stove
I'm moved to smash it to pieces.

This crackling stove!
How monstrous!
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A thin
glass rod
has broken,
tinkling.
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A day with clouds.
The clouds are sad.
A day without clouds.
The sky is sad.
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The heart one day
became a mountain.

The heart one day
became the sky.

The heart one day
became me and was cold.
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Each tree
casts a shadow.

A tree
is a quiet flame.
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It was my fault.
It was entirely my fault.
Sitting on the grass like this, I see it
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At midday
I bury a caterpillar underground.
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It seems to me I should go home.
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In the evening
when I open my eyes
I think of my mother in my hometown far away,
also opening her eyes and saying, "O my sweet child."
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Because I felt bored,
I was standing in the bright sunlight
shedding tears.
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The wind whistles through corn.
It whistles, "Die!"
It whistles, "Die!"
I think I will die.
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