Janis Land Raymer
Biography of Janis Land Raymer
I came from a divorced family. Both of my parents remarried, unfortunately to people I didn't care for. Probably not surprising, I am separated and trying to get a divorce. They say children of divorce have a higher rate, don't they? I have two beautiful teenage girls and a man in my heart (for going on 20 yrs now) whom I love with everything I have...heart, body, mind, and soul. Sadly he doesn't feel quite the same. Therefore many of my works are filled with longing and love gone wrong. But that's ok, cause even when it's bad or it hurts...love is still GREAT! However, I've always heard it said: 'It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all' I'm not entirely sure that's true. Anyway. My poems are very personal, I only write about things that really move me, an experience born from incredible love or great pain. My favorite grandfather(papa Land) died in'93. My father, Tommy Land died in June of '02, my favorite uncle Johhny Land (though I loved them all) died in October of 2000. I also lost two other uncles, Charles and Ronald, and I love and miss them all. Recently (this year) I buried my paternal grandma which was so very difficult. Finally in April '99 my grandad on mom's side and a very good friend of mine died...and let me tell you...other than my dad and his parents, loosing Kay Padgett was the hardest for me.So many of these works are in tribute to very special people. Poetry for me is, very honest and great therapy, so very many of my works are...well, raw. Anyway, I hope you enjoy the way I choose to express mysely on life and sensitive issues I've either lived personally or helped a close friend through. I hope these can, not only entertain, but maybe help someone along the way. Sometimes, like in times of loss due to death my writing is all that keeps me sane.
Janis Land Raymer's Works:
I haven't had any published yet...I've submitted some. However, I do have an e-book that can be downloaded.
Janis Land Raymer Poems
**for My Papa Land**
You were a wonderful man- intelligent, loving, and kind. I really miss you Papa, you're often on my mind.
The goal has not been met Complicated destiny- Victorious crises Destination unclear
The sun doesn't know how the earth yearns for his warmth, his touch. He doesn't know
Dark, desolate highways Leading to nowhere. Echoes of
I say 'I love you' You say 'I'm nothing special' Don't you realize you're everything to me?
**for My Good Friend Kay Padgett**
I remember your smile so bright and full of love you gave me a glimpse of the peace of God's love.
Those you love the most Hurt you the deepest. They carry in their arsenal- Your Fears...
Going To Meet Michael
grey ones and blue ones round ones, square ones old ones and new ones.
Small, trusting, vulnerable you never had a chance. Victim of a negligent choice, I was afraid to dance the dance.
I Close My Eyes And Wonder
I close my eyes and wonder... will anyone ever understand? I close my eyes and wonder... will I always stand alone?
I still remember that day how I prayed and begged God not to take you away. I still remember the emptiness and pain
1...2...3...Ready Or Not....
1...2...3... Ready or not... here I come- looking for truth,
It's like I'm lost as if I'm trying so hard to find my way It's like I'm caught in your trap and I can't find my way
Demons in your mind, in your heart Demons ripping you apart
She is a woman who knows what she wants...yet still looking.
She is a woman who is strong and firm...yet weak and insecure.
She is a woman with experience in love...yet naive and vulnerable.
She is a woman who knows who she is...yet still discovering herself.
She is outgoing, friendly, and funny...yet quiet, shy, and unsure.