Emotions tumble about
Fear rooted deep within the soul
Animosity directed towards my own reflection
Something I have never been able to console
...
She wore the dress that I bought her.
The dress that I wanted to take her out in;
because I told her she looked so beautiful in it.
She wore that dress to meet him.
...
I nailed my Lord to the cross today
Last time I promised it was the last
But I keep slipping and stumbling
Reliving my sinful past
...
Your love is empty and without content
Your love is a pass through only given in the moment
You text me to see if I'll be okay
I'm in the next room and that is all you have to say
...
Thoughts
Emotions tumble about
Fear rooted deep within the soul
Animosity directed towards my own reflection
Something I have never been able to console
Darkness the only comfort left
Hopelessness the only constancy
Void I wish I could not feel
Disappointment ramped in who I see
Embarrassed for myself
For my selfish plight
Sullen withdrawn
Will anything ever go right
People disappoint
And only a fool would trust
Humanity so flawed
Purity motivated by lust
Love without restrictions
Peace without reprieve
Escape from the haunting
Contained unable to leave
Rock bottom a luxury to hit
Feigning to shatter my very core
Utter disbelief
I continue to endure more and more
Stepping aimlessly about
As the blind guide
Time is against me
Misery on my side
Stuck in this forever
Realization tear ducts erupt
Time is endless
So I chose to give up
This has got to end
I'm so tired of living