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The Way I Am

Days are cruel


Moments are pained


Hard cries from hurt


Pain from hearing


Shouts are heard


And truths are spoken


None know


The pain that


I hide


I hold strong.


Yet weakened to this moment


Yielding inside


World is fallen


A pun me


I am hurt


Tormented by two


The ones said to protect me.


Are the reason


Of my pain


I cannot hold.


Back the tears


As they each fall


I see


What I hold


Fear...


because


I love


Them both


And tormented


By the hard fact


that


My family is torn


I need someone


Cannot find


Need to run


Need to scream out loud


The pain


Set it free.


But held back


By my prisoner...



Me


Held back


To protect the ones


Who should be.


Protecting me


I need my savior


My freedom to express


Who I am


And how


I feel


Find the person


Willing to open there arms


And take me in


Tell me I'm fine


And make my pain go away


I need to let myself


Free


But deny myself


Afraid to increase the pain


Cry to


Myself behind doors


And walls


Shut myself from others


Cry


Cowering


Behind them


While they shout and scream


I hear


And am hurt


Need to be calmed


Need peace.


Write to hide


How I feel


The only


Exit I find


is through


this


my emotions


are hardly felt


seeing what I've become


over the years of hiding


help


is what I


ask


help…

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