Jennifer Umansky

Will I feel this weight on my heart forevor?
Cause it eats me alive everyday.

I physically feel it pushing down on my heart and sinking it down to my stomach.
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I miss him.

I miss looking into his kind eyes.
I miss hugging him, his arms shielding me
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I used to always think of you before I drifted off to sleep.
Most of the time I'd close my eyes and imagine my head on your chest.
If I concentrated enough
I could hear your heart beat in sync with mine,
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My mind scares me.
It forms faces in the dark,
ominous and disturbing.
From the corners of my eye
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I just want to hold her.
Sit with her through the night, have her fall asleep in my arms.
Watch her drift off with no more pain.
The world finally off of her shoulders.
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im so dependant on my friends
there the only people that make me happy

when im alone
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let me in
let me be your sunshine

let me in
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oh forgive me father
for i have sinned

i let myelf fall again
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i cant write
only scribble meaningless words
i cant eat
only hear my stomach's churns
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i stare outside my window,
observing my own starry night.
my soul calling outwards,
pulling me into the blades of grass
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"hey"

just a simple word
but what does it mean?
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look at me from across the class
show me attention
my love, my love
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clear blue sky today
my mood has lifted

life has a nice fresh breeze to it
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every inch of your heart
beating

blood
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take me and my darlin up into the sky
and lay our bodies side by side

bury our bones under the willow tree
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nothing makes me feel more alive
than when i'm gliding through soft snow

zooming down the cold, icy mountain
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escape
we're all just trying to escape

milky smoke entering our lungs
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i sit in my room and wonder
how will everything change when i leave?
i know how things will happen for me.
my soul will condense and my heart will bleed.
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throw my ego in a paper shredder
stick pins through my eardrums
you goblet of terror
take a bite out of my heart
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