If he reads this, he knows what it is about. Everyone else just gets an immodest peek into my follies. A see-saw of emotions, especially since its history to all but me. I did say I gave him my heart. It begins to appear that I did. One of these days I'll retrieve it?
...
While reason screams 'tis folly in my ears;
Though all deny a chance exists. I know
Of course its all too true, and yet I go
With something like perversest glee too near
...
For all who may be curious, dear friends, etc.....after nigh on a year with 'dear old PH' matters have gotten too much for me. I posted nearly 100 more poems on my page the beginning of July 2011 and PH deleted half of each, unlabelling all my sonnets and deleting author's notes. My loyalty has worn too thin. Hence, I deleted everything I've posted over the past year here. IF anyone seriously wants to read my lines and does not know where I 'hang out, ' please kindly dropp me a note/private message, and I will give you the link to my poetry which is still published online, elsewhere. I retain my membership here as yet, owing to the dear friends I am loathe to lose. I hope all is somehow going well for the rest of you fellow PH'ers. Au Revoir, Jenny Gordon)
If Only You Dared
If he reads this, he knows what it is about. Everyone else just gets an immodest peek into my follies. A see-saw of emotions, especially since its history to all but me. I did say I gave him my heart. It begins to appear that I did. One of these days I'll retrieve it?
(sonnet # CCCLXXXIII)
I know I said my heart was yours, yet you
Deigned not to hear. Or if you did, 'twas all
A joke, at least it looks that way, my call
On deaf ears falling when I cry. I'd rue
Such follies; often do; yet still holds true:
I think anon of you, bemoan and crawl
Again to mem'ries merry store; the pall
Of my mistakes the only gloomy hue.
The other fellows worry me 'cause I
Think I am yours. Go laugh. Or triumph o'er
Me for being right. Forget. Is't but a lie?
Else why move on and all my cries ignore?
Don't answer, but of course. I guess I'll sigh
And cast this off. Or long for you e'ermore?
14Dec11
D42b
I hope you continue writing for as long as you can. I know your poetry will touch many people's lives. God has given you a real gift! I would be honored if you would rate some of my poems.
I hope you continue to make poems for a long time. Would love a copy of your Poem 'No such thing as a free meal please Jenny.