Jill Ferrey

Darkness beckons to her, its long reaching fingers
touching her to her very soul
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She looks in the mirror, wondering
Silently to herself, her thoughts all a muddle
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Ode of I

Weary am I now
for this thing called life has not been kind
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You turned to the solace of darkness
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Farewell Matriarch of the maternal line

Saying good bye is hard to do
A farewell that she was not allowed to show you
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Unspoken regret


I awoke this morning, once againt the nagging though is there
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Monsters of the night

Inner demons who seem to rule my fate
for me I feel its far to late
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You did more than abandon our marriage
You ripped two little souls apart
And left all they knew from life in tatters
All to mount your holier than thou carriage
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She sits alone, with no one to listen
No one to see her tears that glisten
On the ends of her long lashes
As the memories come back in flashes
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In the dark of night
She sits alone, deep in thought
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Is this the beginning of the end?
The way life has lately forced me to buckle and bend
blown aorund by the winds of fate and destiny
my soul left bent and buckled by the rains of despair
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Forces of nature, that’s what we are, you and I
You are the water, gentle yet tumultuous
I am the fire, hot yet can lose all control
Together we are unstoppable
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Be still my beloved, your pain has been heard
Be brave oh suffering soul, you suffering has been seen
You have been so, so brave up till now
No matter how threatening was the breaking of the bough
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You have always been there for me
through the toughest to times in my life
you gave me away on my wedding day
reluctantly sending me on my way to become a wife
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It’s been exactly a month since you passed from this world
To the next, starting the next stage of you existence
You have left a mark in each one of us,
One that still aches with remembrance
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Communication is the key to humanity
Yet when that channel shuts down within,
What is one to do?
Where is one to go?
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Stirrings of the thirst and lust for life
Slowly awakening from deep within
Awakened by that slightest touch
That deep soul grabbing look
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You have made this your personal mission
To help me find and reignite my passion
For life, for love and yes for that primal connection
Felt by two when they are joined as one
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In her own shadow she resides
Afraid of what she would find out there
Should she ever deviate from the safe and known
How many countless moments has she already blown
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The scars obtained for a love that once was
Leaving my soul all but drained
Of any form of thought or color
This I go though every which way through false valor
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