I’m exposed to the worse type of individuals but endured the best
I’ve seen every malicious act from envy and betrayal
Acknowledge death for what it is and still move forward
My bumps and bruises will all heal
Love was never an open ended friend that I could trust
It was always an illusion brought on by the deepening of lust
They say you should never base your trust on what lies in the past
But then they also say you should never let it go too fast
Sometimes the pain of insecurities
Runs deep into your entity
Extinguishing your serenity
Traveling through the sands of your existence
My mind is distorted by reoccurrences of past experiences
Somehow the sight of my own reflection increases my loneliness
I found myself coming in and out of this conscious state
Contemplating while debating hoping one day to be free of my ways
You came in my life at a time
When I knew the lonely would never end
I didn’t even care to change it
With alone I was content
I should be studying now but for that I'm uninspired
I should have my head in the book yet for that I'm feelin tired
I should have started the lesson for completion but I don’t know where to begin
I should have stayed focused on my mission so that when I'm up to fight I win
When you look to the stars, what do you see?
I see a whole lot; do you think you can feel me?
A shining eternity, so far that it’s near,
Nothing is real, what you see, what you hear.
Would it be selfish of me to blind the world so another man could never envision you
Would it be selfish of me to only share the air you breathe so you would never be contaminated by the impurities of the world?
Would it be selfish of me to stop time only for you to live another second
Would it be selfish of me to wish I was your hands so I could touch you as frequently as possible?
Like a flower blooming amidst the snow
Or a single leaf in the wind as it blows
A wave of sound across the sky
Life - so chaotic as it twists and it turns.
Like being bare foot in the sand as it burns.