You keep on asking as if we're blessed
There are no answers for us to digest
Man has no insight to the meaning of life
It's futile and full of pain and strife
...
See the smouldering tepid disguise
Right in front of your gullible eyes
The evil and hatred that lurks within
Unaware of the imminent danger we're in
...
You can lie all you like
And pretend you are clean
You can bow like a slave
Support the state greet the queen
...
Drama and gossip celebrity and profit
The latest mobile phone
Desperate days the waifs and strays
Another repossessed home
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What will it be like to not be here
It's impossible to imagine it fills me with fear
Some turn to religion and fall under the spell
Believe in the afterlife re-incarnation heaven and hell
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She was groomed at school she was the teacher's pet
She had no idea she was under threat
She was innocent and sweet clever and bright
But that would all change on that fateful night
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We set the date the venue the time
We held hands and drank our tea
We didn't need to say another word
We knew we would finally be free
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As tiny as a Gnat
Sitting nice and comfortable
Just underneath your skin
Making everyone paranoid and vulnerable
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After I die my journey will end
There'll be no more reason to act or pretend
I will feel no jealousy anger or greed
No ambition no goals no need to succeed
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Oh my cunning little mind
On this wonderful day what do we find
Are you positive happy and relishing life
Or the usual controlling abusive wife
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Death is never far away
Looming closer day by day
When I think of death I think of hell
I'm doomed I've been groomed by Satan's spell
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Ifs and maybes buts and whatevers
I wish and if onlys and the twelfth of nevers
Forecasts and downcasts and a cunning disguise
Impossible to dissect the establishment lies
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My mind is cunning deceptive contrite
An unscrupulous humongous parasite
Right now I accept I will never know
It's my mind not me that spoils the show
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Spit in my face you'll get no resistance
I'm seconds away from non-existence
Your threats and demands affect me no more
I'm returning back home through the open door
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Apply me with alcohol so I can get through
Sat here on my own makes me sad and so blue
A mind numbing stimulant is all that's required
I must get to the other side unharmed re-wired
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Dear old Bessie was lazy and messy
She was grumpy and rude to her neighbours
She would sit in her chair watching endless tv
Eating takeaways buns and cheese quavers
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It used to be fun
And a pleasure to drive
Now you've got road rage
And boy racers up your backside
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Fleeting moments of happiness
That's all I ever get
For the most part it's hurt pain and sadness
Consumed by self-doubt and regret
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Eyes in the dark voices in the head
Stalker in the room somewhere wishing I was dead
Playing evil games pulling at my hair
Whispering dark desires another awful nightmare
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www.kelvinrush.com Kelvin Rush is the author of ten books. He’s written and published over one thousand poems, most of which are included in his book “Birth Slave Die” released in 2019.)
The Meaning Of Life
You keep on asking as if we're blessed
There are no answers for us to digest
Man has no insight to the meaning of life
It's futile and full of pain and strife
Think about anything that comes in your head
Then never forget one day you'll be dead
It's hardly surprising that no one is sane
The drugs and the booze the lies and the pain
The reason for living is not found in a book
It's like having a dream but you never wake up
It can't be explained by sight or sound
It's magnificent and godlike immense and profound
It's short and sweet it's bitter and pure
It offers you thrills but gives you no cure
It's bloody and quaint it's violent and cruel
It pretends to be saint but acts like a fool
It rises in many and renders you weak
It causes such heartache it's coy and discrete
It knows you will suffer before you give in
It's cunning and stunning and determined to win
It shines like an angel it oozes with joy
It's willing and able to kill and destroy
It moves off in silence then strikes like a snake
God help all the ones who lie in its wake
It's confusing and baron and incredibly wise
It's intrusive and Aaron it laughs and it cries
It pretends to be clean when in fact it infects
It's rude and obscene and hard to detect
It always reacts and never forgets
It retains all its strength from the ones it protects
It creates then dictates then destroys all that's good
It debates and dilates and feeds off your blood
It's rigid and torrid corrupt and insane
It thrives on emotion like anger and pain
It lurks like a virus it's patient and calm
It's willing and able with swagger and charm
It comes out of nowhere with fire and gust
It's heartless and cold it's bold and robust
Nothing on earth can stand in its way
It flatters and shatters and batters its prey
So before you ask what's the meaning of life
Just remember my friend we're dumb and so blind
We're specs on this earth of no consequence
We're meaningless parasites an insignificance